Days

They say,
it takes a minute,
to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love em,
but an entire life to forget them..

I didn't think it was true at first, cause through relationships, most of it are the ones i really do love them, tho in the end, things just goes in separate ways... It wasn't hard as it sounds... The shortest time of me being single was just a few days, and past relationships wasn't that hurtful anymore..
Until i met this special someone, who fits the quote above.. Cause that's what i can't do right now... Reminiscing thru some old memories, pictures, and gifts together, waiting, and can't forget, forgiving and living on a thread...

Songs..=')

Every latest songs seem so nice to hear,
yet parts of every lyrics sounds so much like her,
and some sounded like what i felt like telling her,
some gave me strength to go on,
and some just brings me down,
some makes me tears,
and some even makes me reminisce,

hearing classical songs,
gives me time to calm,
but repeating itself seems so dumb,
how long can i keep myself calm?
when everyday i wish to hold her palm..

smiles...=')

It's been umpteen days, since I lost someone very special to me... Someone, whom I can't seem to let go.. though we're still going out, but as normal friends.. it makes me happy enough to know she's just right there by my side all the time... only thing is that there's a boundary between us.. it's just an extra word to add into "friend"...and everything will be totally different.

Those memories we had together... starts to swirl around my head, and things we've been through together isn't easy to erase. Though it's a short period, but the times we spent together, seems like it lasted than we are together.. Cherishing every moments together, forgive and to forget, to love and to comfort.. sadness, that needs to be cheered.. loneliness that needs to be cuddled..

Somehow.. i wish for her happiness, but on the other hand, i wish i could be selfish.. but I can't, seeing her now, with a cheerful face all the time, how could I take away all that?... It hurts a lot to let go something which really meant the world to you..
I still love her, whole heartedly..

Hardest part in life..

Through out these months we've been together,
Tons of arguments, yet loads of memories,
Gallons of tears, and countless times of joy,
Through sickness, and healthy times,
Cherishing every moment together,
and it all ended with a full stop.
Everyone says just forget it and move on,
I've been tryin to input that phrase into me,
countless times I tried, yet it isn't easy,
Yet i still cherish everything bout her,
I grew to love her imperfections and all..
and I've never once ever thought of leaving her.

The hardest part in life, is to let go someone you really love so badly...
and to give them the happiness they wanted.
i don't know how to describe this feeling,
how much I really cherish this relationship,
seems to me the harder I try, the more it seems to go away..
Smiling, is only a face,
to let people know that you're happy,
but it's not easy to smile, when tears always fills your eyes when you smile..



It's hard to forget bout someone you loved so much.


and I'm still trying....I still love you...

General Anxiety Disorder..

After so long, i realized that I've been diagnose with such a disorder..
General Anxiety Disorder (G.A.D.)
Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) is an anxiety disorder that is characterized by excessive, uncontrollable and often irrational worry about everyday things that is disproportionate to the actual source of worry. This excessive worry often interferes with daily functioning, as individuals suffering GAD typically catastrophise, anticipate disaster, and are overly concerned about everyday matters such as health issues, money, death, family problems, friend problems or work difficulties.^[1] They often exhibit a variety of physical symptoms, including fatigue, fidgeting, headaches, nausea, muscle tension, muscle aches, difficulty swallowing, bouts of difficulty breathing, trembling, twitching, irritability, sweating, insomnia, hot flashes, and rashes. These symptoms must be consistent and on-going, persisting at least 6 months, for a formal diagnosis of GAD to be introduced. ^[1] Approximately 6.8 million American adults experience GAD.

So... yeah, i have partially those symptoms, now that explains the rashes on my body, the trembling and the excessive sweats.... Can i be cure?...

Updates...

It's been almost 2 months since our finals... still remember the days we rushed like crazy just to do our finals... printing, staying ups, rendering, falling asleep on sofas, coffees... Well, college life is over for me now, come to think of it, time flies very fast.. is the Earth rotating even faster?.. i wonder.."/
Kinda miss those days when we're back in college.. In this past 2 months, i only met few of my college friends.. and my old collegues too.. although we only get to meet for a short while, but it's worth it.. hopefully one day we'all put asides our work, stress, and any other thing just to meet up...
Well, what's wrong with just meeting up and have fun? A food gathering?...outings? a day trip?...
Hope to get a plan soon...

anyways, me and my dear has reached 8months..^^ Days been getting better, and things are getting brighter... hope things won't be as it use to be.. and just be happy always..^^..
(4 more months till 1 year.. dear,! we can make it..)...hahahaha

Currently, been workin for my dad... i wanted to work outside, but then my dad have other plans.. cause he wants me to take over the business.. Inputing company's data into me.... Things aren't as difficult as it seems at 1st, but seems like it's not as easy as it is... Now i know what it feels like workin as my dad.. But i kinda get on to it.....hehe..
OH! in 2 days time, my 1st so-call job-cum-project.... Goin to Langkawi to do a set, for a liquor ad... can't reveal what ad issit..=P wait till i come back i'll let y'all know...

So, that's bout it.. my latest updates on the past 2 months, pictures will be uploaded soon...
Due to some lil boy my mom finds just to fix her laptop, instead on fuckin up my P1, my internet is currently suckie...=.=" damn you boi~
P/S: anyone who's a computer expert mind pm-ing me?... or anyone knows one.. a good one.. cause i tired with this stupid connections....argh~~

When you tell me that you love me

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does

Diana:
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you (Mark: world without you)
I would always hunger (Mark: I will always hunger)
All I need is your love

...to make me stronger

and baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me


When you tell me that you love me